The Evolution of a Dreamer
I am a star gazer, a pie in the sky, bonafide day dream believer! The beautiful reality of this life looking through rose colored glasses is, the dreams I’ve dared to dream have come true.
Motivation, focus, direction, preparation are some of the many strengths I draw from my propensity to dream big or go home. The problem is, I have outlived my dreams. I am now in uncharted reality. My over active mind never imagined an empty nest. It never occurred to me that someday I would be older than my school administrators, my boss. Clothing and hairstyles appropriate for a woman in her early…..well never mind….. haven’t tapped my creative interest.
So what does one do when one has outgrown castle building in the clouds? Learn to pray on a whole new dimension.
I remember as a young adult, my parents were doing exactly as I am doing now. In the world of land lines only, they would call me every few days. Completing our conversation, their closing words were usually, “Love you baby, we are praying for you.” Many times I thought, “That’s sweet, but I would rather you drop twenty dollars in the mail.” Harsh, but true. Age has granted insight and I realize the best, not the least, they had to give me was their steadfast, sacrificial, daily routine of taking my name to the Throne of God. Those prayers assured that God remained God and appropriate perspective and respect was honored in our parent/child relationship long before I cherished the gift.
Dreaming is a hope with a plan, expectations, designated outcomes. A prayer is hope with surrender and contentment regardless of the outcome. As a dreamer I imagined enhancing the outward beauty of my little girls with bustles and bows. In prayer I long for their inner character to become more like Christ. As a dreamer I sought to have a work ethic that earned trust, admiration and appreciation from my superiors. In petition to my Heavenly Father I ask that they and I find discernment and wisdom as we guide the lives of the next generation. Dreaming was all about me. Praying is about everyone else.
Mom, dad, thank you for the prayers that began before you knew me. Leah and Melissa, I am praying for you and I know those prayers will bring you to where they brought me, the cross and the Throne of God.
To the rest of you lovely friends and family that read my blog each Sunday, dream and pray, pray and dream. There is a mother somewhere out there hoping someone intercedes for her child. There is a pastor praying for laborers in the white fields of harvest. There is a young person waiting for hope in the hand of someone who’s already traveled the road they are struggling down.
Aging is sometimes frightening and difficult, but exchanging my dreams for an unmapped life motivated, directed and sustained by prayer alone is my ultimate dream come true and I know the best is yet to come.
Take delight in the LORD, and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
Dreaming On!
Gretchen